1900 - From the letters writer by Lt Col Park in Ladysmith
We have just got news of the relief of Kimberley (why, oh! why, doesn’t our own come?) and the rout of Cronje’s army and capture of five laagers by General French, and of Roberts being at Jacobsdaal; all of which is splendid and very cheering, as it is the first heavy defeat the Boers have had, and with hardly any loss on our side, excepting, perhaps, Elandslaagte, and the numbers engaged there were too small to make a crushing defeat of it.
I hope it will have the effect of drawing off the Boers from here, though it may only make them hang on the harder, as they see that Buller apparently cannot break through. The news makes one feel a little sick when one thinks that Roberts landed only a month ago or less, and has already relieved a garrison, captured Colesberg, and routed a Boer army.
There was a good deal of firing this morning, but it seemed a long way off. There has been firing so many days and nothing happens and there seems to be no result, and still we sit here manning all our defences daily at 4.30 a.m. and listening for guns and watching for signals which never come all day, and gnawing our horse beef and biscuit, and getting through the long hot days as best we can; but it is oh! so wearisome. Forgive this growl. I don’t know why, but I feel particularly low and depressed today, and I can’t growl to anyone here; it would be bad form, and one must keep up a cheerful demeanour, so you get the benefit.
I sent a scrap of letter to you last night, which I hope will get through and reach you some time (It did). I only had a few minutes to write it, and was limited to half-a sheet, and as it had to go open and be read and passed by the Intelligence people I couldn’t say any of the nice things I wanted to, nor give you any news beyond the fact that I was well. It was to go through with several others by a Kaffir runner to Buller’s force, and then be posted. The arrangement was made by a friend of Jacson’s in the Natal Carbineers Volunteers, who wrote and said they were sending a man through, and we could send one or two letters if they were sent down to him at once, at a subscription of from 2s.6d. to 10s. a letter, according to the number sent. If the man gets through safely we shall hear in a week or less. If not, we shall hear nothing, as the Boers will keep him. I don’t know why I feel despondent today, as things are, if anything, better, and certainly not worse, than yesterday, and after all I hardly expected relief much before the end of the month, and that is eleven days off. I think being so limp and weak has a bad effect, and I shan’t be able to get up muscle and strength till I get more food and regular exercise.